Today I am struggling. I am struggling with the weight of responsibility of being a deacon. Struggling with keeping focused on Gods goodness, God greatness and His plan for our church. Struggling to keep my head up and focused on Him rather then the tasks at hand or the obstacles that need to be overcome.
This is a trial, a time of uncomfortable stretching and growing my faith.
The temptations are growing. They are heavy. My heart is looking for reasons to stop, whispers of "just stop, no one will blame you", "You don't need to do anything, just stop", "this isn't what you signed up for and this isn't your job".
But my mind knows the truth, this is a time of trial and temptation. I need to keep at this, keep the focus on God and God alone. Keep my head up and rise to what He is calling me to do. I need to grab a hold of his promises and not let go. No matter the trial, no matter the temptations, I need to fight and keep fight.
Please pray for me friends. That I focus on Him and not the tasks at hand. That I'll keep fighting the good fight.