In His time

Never have I wanted anything more then this. I fell on my knees, broke in to tears asking God for it. It consumed my heart. Its so painful, I was so angry, so upset, I just couldn't hold it back or hide it anymore. It all came out, as I fell on my knees for God. I let it all out at Him and I yelled at Him. I hit the ground with my fist in anger. I wanted them to know Him so much, that I even got mad at God for not saving them. My mom, my dad, my older sister, and my younger sister. I know I shouldn't of. And well I know better now I guess. I need to be able to control my self and my feelings no matter how painful or angry I am. I need to pray for them and for myself too. I need to life up my feeling to the Lord and look for his comfort, and most importantly, I need to be patient, let the Lord decide when it will be time.

"Not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit" -Zachariah 4:6

Not by my might or my attempts or how hard I try, but by the Holy Spirit will then my family will be saved.