Huh?

Jacklyn...your scary..

Very scary...

How did you know I would help out with caroling? haha

Oh man.

I'm tired, sleepy as well.

I should sleep.

Its 2:36am.

Pretty darn late.

Caroling was awesome as usual =D.

I like Jacklyn and Andrew house. Its nice.

OK!

DAVID OUT!

ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzz

Hey Guys! I got a simple solution.

Lets just blame it on David!

SOUNDS GOOD!

You know,

I don't even wanna argue anymore.

I'm tired of it.

Not Good Enough

Right now, I am weak and not the fastest or brightest guy.

I can't even bench what I did in high school, nor run as fast or as long as I used to.

I lack in many fields.

I need to be stronger, faster, smarter, and have better reflexes.

The stronger, faster and smarter I become, the better I will be able to do my job when it comes.

I need to develop quick reflexes and be able to react to sudden events and attend to them accordingly and appropriately in a efficient manner.

I know what I have to do. And I must put more effort into doing this in the upcoming year and years to come. I am running on what feels like borrowed time, and have been for a while. These next three years, I need to up the anti on my physical fitness because three years is all I have until its go time.

I ask for help. Ask that you push me. Shove me. Throw weights on me. Help me make my self better. Not just physically, but in all aspects. I know I lack Bible knowledge. I don't say the smartest things or do the right things all the time. I still have much to learn.

I feel like I need to live my life in these next three years.

Just another

Just another student.

Just another person on the street.

Just another kid on block.

Just another person you hate.

Just another lonely person.

Just another unwanted person.

Just another person who does things wrong.

Just another lonely person.

Just another wanting to disappear.

Just another lost dream.

Just another forgotten man.

Just another fading soul.

Just another screaming man.

I am just another?...

No, I'm not.

Cold

Lord, why did you make me the way I am?

The ways I react to people actions, certain situations..

Did I react in a wrong way?

Should I apologize for my actions?

But first Lord, Did I react wrong?

You saw what happened God,

You herd what I said, saw how I acted.

Was that the right thing to do?

When it comes to the people I hold dear.

I dwell on my actions for a timeless period.

Did I wrong them? hurt them?

But when it come to these people.
I have to be honest with them. Be straight with them.

Call them on there actions. If they said they would never again.

And then they do..I need to say or do something....right?

I did..and well..its there life, there choice..

But they said never again.

And I hold this person very close.

So, what do I do?