Turn to God

I don't know God.
What is going on here?
Your the reason last night went so good.
Your the reason everyone was apart of the skits.
Your the reason why the devotion went really good.

So God, why did the conclusion of Friday night end so low.
Why this sharp pain in my heart?
Is it here? Is it coming?
Is there a decision to be made?
My heart and my soul are crying out to you God.

God, I do not know why,
but alright, I will keep on listing and pushing towards you.
Flexing my faith right?

I am struggling with turning my self around.