and He says..

I'll live=)

WHY?!?!?!?!
WHY OH WHY ARE YOU PUTTING ME THROUGH THIS LORD!!!

And I will never know why.
Gotta find peace with that as Pastor Kat said so well.

Your son is so tired.

So tired.

Worshiping You.

Thats all I want to do.

Right now.

Just me and You Lord.

I want to just fall before You and just sing.

I REALLY REALLY REALLY...

WISH I KNEW!!

I really do.

I really really really wish I knew what God wants me to do right now.

I know what he wants me to do in a few years.

But not sure about what he wants me to do now?

HOLD UP!!!
HOLD ON!!!
WAIT A SECOND!!!

Ok....i just farted.

as i was saying...

what am I suppose to do now?

to be more specific....

well..I don't wanna be more specific on my blog where all are free to read..lol

HUMMMMM

so I will say this.

Every want something? Or lets say dream of something. Always hoped for. Always wanted to be.

Well, God has this plan for me you see.

This plan involves joining the army in a few years.

And well, this is only a small part of the problem. Well i shouldn't say problem, more of a concern. Joining the army would only put what I wanted, what I've dreamed about, what I've hoped for, what I've always wanted to be on hold. The bigger concern is well, I don't know if God wants me to make it a career choice.

If it were to be my career choice, then that mean I would have to say goodbye to what I wanted, what I've dreamed about, what I've hoped for, what I've always wanted.

It's like..GG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha

Well I don't know yet. 

My friend Mr.Leo said just keep the doors open.

And well. I guess I will stick to that?

Keep them open. And not let anyone go through, but let them stand in the door way? then let them in or slam the door depending on the outcomes of the next few years?

God will say Yes, No or Wait.
He said to me.
Wait and I will tell you yes or no.

OK!! WHO DID IT?!?!?!?!
WHO PRAYED PATIENTS ON ME?!?!?!??!!