Just can't smile.

I can force one out tho..

but when I do..

A hole appears in my heart and it hurts.

I acted wrong again didn't I?

I screwed up.

I'm getting rather good at that.

Talk about pitiful.

As your reading this, if you still do..

Your probably saying.."You idiot, of course you did"

What kind of guy, does this?

I can't stick to what I think was right.

I hate how I dwell on these thoughts.

Whats wrong with me?

come on.

Walking home..i was just so mad.

I went berserk, like..my fists still hurt.

No one noticed tho, which i guess is a good thing...because I wouldn't of know what to say..

Right now,

I'm just not my self..

Can someone save me and make me smile?

It would be nice.

Embrace

Its time.

I'm pushing my self now.

Pushing hard.

Working hard.

Going All in.

I can feel and kinda see the results of pushing and going all in.

Now I just have to push even harder and go even deeper.

Break off all attached strings, and use my own hands and feet.

Its time for me to stand up.

and Push my self to greater depths.

Stepping stones

I'm joining the army.

Once I'm done University.

That's the road God had made for me.

So that the road I'm taking.

Its scary.

Like..I'm scared..

But there's a fire of excitement burning in me.

And as it gets closer...the fire get bigger

This has been in my head for years now. And yes..

I KNOW this is the path God wants me to take.

All your guys weddings.

haha. Oh, just imagining it is so awesome.

Seeing everyone becomes moms and dads.

Oh that will be a sight for soar eyes! =P!! jk jk lol

It'll suck..to have to say goodbyes to everyone..

goodbyes for reals

To close all loose ends.

The thing that scares me the most is..

God has not told me how long..

Months, years, and maybe until my clock stops.

Who knows..

that scares me..

not knowing..

But I know its in Gods hand.
So I'm trying to be more comfortable with it.

He holds my future.

So I'll be ok

=)

Remember Remember, The 11th of November

The fought so we didn't have to. They fought for what we have today. What you have today. They fought for...

your family, your friends, our cities, your children, your house, our jobs, our lawn, the TV you have, the games you play, the cars you drive, the restaurants you eat at, the food you buy, the movies you watch, the computers you use, the people you talk to, the places you hang out at, the love you feel for each other..

They fought for that. And some continue to fight.

So remember on this day of November.

WHERE AM I

Ever look in the mirror and wonder where you were.

Thats what I find my self doing a lot these days.

WHERE AM I? WHERE AM I GOING?

or should I say..

How do I get to where it is that I'm heading.

I know where I need to be.

God has told me several times and has reminded me several times.

He reminded me just again today....

BUT THE QUESTION IS...

how..do..I...GET THERE??

NANI?!?!?!?!

NANDESU KA?!?!?!?!

WARUI DESU!!!

(japanese)

Oh man oh man oh man!

I need to work harder..

I bombed 2 tests this week..both of which are worth about 30%

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I'M FLIPPING G!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

POOPICLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WATASHI WA BAKA DESU KA?!?!?!

HAI HAI HAI!!
DAVIDSAN WA BAKA DESU!!!!

(EVEN MORE JAPANESE!!! =O!)

I'm looking forward to tomorrow. Hanging with Jack and then movie with DA LEO CHAN!!!, THE FOREHEAD KNOW AS ZEVIDA WONG!!!, THE OH SO COOL MEELY CHO!!!!, THE ONE AND ONLY DAUGHTER EUNICE WONG!!

It'll be fun.

Nice to just FORGET ABOUT SCHOOL=D

I'm behind tho..need to catch up on a few things..sigh**

BROKEN IS I.

I don't know why I still do the things I do sometimes.

I just do it for some reason.

Am I a nice guy? You tell me.

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please!!! (T.T)