My grandam is doing better. She seems to be some what happier. Once a week now, she comes over to our house after dialysis to have dinner. She enjoys it very much.
I finally got a car, no more will my dad have to wake up so early. He can have his extra hour or so of sleep.
I do need to work on doing things before my dad gets to it. My dad is the kind of person that will do it if it needs to be done. Even if it's bad for him. For example, I told my dad that I would change his car tires the next day. I woke up the next morning to attend Saturday Morning prayer, and was back home by 12:30pm. I was gone for 2 hours. In that two hours he changed his tires and blew his back again.
I need to get to things before he does.
Today I realized something.
For quite a while, I've been trying to live my life by understanding that no God has a plan for everything you go through, and I mean everything. I've been doing aright for the most part.
But it was a real struggle today. I had to fight hard for it. In my thoughts and in my heart. I was screaming with emotions inside and I really had to fight my self to remember that everything happens for a reason. That God has a plan. No matter how bad, sad, mad or whatever you are feeling. There is a greater purpose that you do not realize. I kept on reminding that to myself today. Kept on saying "There is a purpose, there is a purpose, there is a purpose". It kept my clam for the most part. When ever I wanted to lash out with negativity, I spoke the words again. "God has a plan, and there is a plan to this".
So remember, God has a plan for you. No matter how bad or how crappy. Keep on reminding this to yourself.
``For I know the plans I have have for you, declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future``
Jeremiah 29:11
Its one thing to say it, its another to live it.
