So..

School has been...well rough, plenty of homework and football parasitic just kills a lot of time..
Sports Performance has been making me dead tired everyday,
just..drained of energy at the end of every week.
I try to sleep earlier so I wont be as tired the next day, but my allergies or what ever is wrong with my nose keeps me up all night. Takes me hours to fall asleep.
With all the homework and all the stuff that's going on, I lose site of whats important and let close strings stretch.
The only times I actually spend time with friends are Fridays at Yac and Sunday at church. The rest of the time, I'm at home, doing homework or doing something at home.
Lunch hours I spend watching game film, so I cant really spend time with my friends then.
After parasitic I take the bus home and every now and then I would see Jessica at the bus loop. Nice to see her working hard at ACAD.
Come home, do homework, dinner, chores, study, and then sleep.
Can't wait for semester 1 to be over. My second semester is much more slack, my only cores are ELA, Social and with 2 option's, Gym 30 and Legal 30.
Man have I've been pushing God aside, The only time I spend with Him now are when I take the bus and walk home. Haven't been reading the bible or doing my devotions.
And just yesterday, I'm not really sure if I hit a wall or a wall was torn down. I really don't know how to feel. Very confusing man.
Even though I've been pushing God aside. He been telling me and reminds me to do the little things. Few days ago, He taped me over the shoulder, I turned and looked. I saw a old women holding a lot of bags walking home He told me to help her, or when I'm getting off the bus, He tells me to hold the door. When I was doing the Eggarts run for sports pro, I saw a few kids at a park, and one of them fell from the top of the play ground, God told me to help him. God just somehow reminds me to do things like that even when I'm buried with homework.

Lord, You are a great God, amazing, holy,graceful, merciful,wise, wonderful...
I pray that, You Lord God, help me keep You in my mind. Let me find time to read Your Words, listen to Your answers and fall in amazement of you Lord.
Amen

Wish

Wish
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For just a moment
I wish I could have been there
To see Your first step, hear Your very first word
Tell me, did You ever fall and scrape Your knee?
Did You know Your wounds would one day heal the world?

For just one moment
I wish I could have seen You growing
Learning the ways of a carpenter's son
Just a little boy gazing at the stars
Did You remember creating every one?

If You passed by, would I have seen a child or a King?
Would I have known?

I wish I could have been there
My only wish is to see You face to face
Wish I could have been there
Just to see You, Jesus, face to face

For just a moment
I wish I could have been there
When You left Your footprints upon the waves
To walk along beside You and never look away
Just Your whisper and the wind and sea obey

To see You feed the people
To feel Your healing in Your touch

To hear You pray in the garden alone
Laying down Your will with each tear
To see You walk that lonely road
Willing to die for me
And in that moment
I know I should have been there
You took my cross and gave Your life

And You live again!
Wish I could have been there
My only wish is to see You rise again
Wish I could have been there
My only wish is to see You, Jesus, face to face
Someday I'll be there, I'm gonna be there
I'll see Your face, Your mercy, Your grace
Someday, someday
I'm gonna see You, Jesus
Face to face