Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Hitting the wall

Have you ever had one of those days??where everything seems to go wrong??Feels like you've hit a wall and you just fall down??I meant to write this yesterday..but when I got home it was around 8??9??and I just wanted to lay down on my bed and just lay there. School was normal until the afternoon. Well last period. I spoke to a friend and she told me some important stuff...well I didn't think of it much at first, but latter on it consumed me. I was overwhelmed by it. On the car ride to the doctors I didn't say a word to my dad. I got to the doctor and he said I had a eye infection and I would have to use this cream stuff and it blurred my vision for a while. Well after I got the medicine, my dad went to work and I took the bus home. I was about to cross the road when it happened, I called 911 and the line was busy, I called again and I got through. After that I did everything they told me to, and well, I thought of it as all my fault...it...was...I don't really know..but it was the first time I have been so close to something like that...When I got home, and my sister wouldn't listen to me, I exploded, I blew up. Latter on, I went to my room and laid there for hours, I could hear my dad come home and say "is David asleep??" I herd my older sister say yup. I herd my mom talking to my dad about me. I could hear my sister baking and yea. And i didn't care. I was just lying there thinking of what happened. I told no one. Today, I put on a good act. Nothing happened. I told one of my friends, but it a happy manner,
I was half dead inside tho.
And hear once again I'm still shaken up.
My vision blurred again.
Doing what I was supposed do yesterday.

3 comments:

Havok said...

Do you want to meet up on Friday and talk about it? If you need me or prayer I'm here for you man...

Havok said...

“I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.” Ephesians 3:16-19 (NLT)

lito_e said...

David, i certainly don't know what's wrong but hang on to that faith of god's dont let it go GRASP onto it,pray and pray until something happens, dont let it go remeber JESUS will always be true to you,look up to him,no matter how HARD the road is he'll be there, he'll never abandon you like everyone esle,with man all things are impossible but with god all things are possible.i'll be praying for you, keep your head up buddy.

p.s.
When hope is lost, I'll call You Saviour
When pain surrounds, I'll call You Healer
When silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart