With my hands

what have i brought?

what have i caused?

better or worse?

why is the single most occurring theme.

I am not. not even close.

I bring the pain, i bring the hurt.

I am not. not even close.

I do not deserve, will not ever.

I am not. not even close.

time is lost, time is wasted

I am not.  not even close.

where is the good? I see the bad.

I am not. not even close.

lost for words, lost for words.

one word, repeated and repeated. that one word is just repeated. 

what to say but that one word.

one word said so many. again again again again again again again again.

lost the one word, oh so lost.

what to do?where to go?what to think?

the back, so many times I see the back.

Just walk away. turn away.

so many times I see the back.

Smaller and smaller, the back gets smaller.

again. again again, one word, repeated and repeated.

error, error, error, fail, fail, fail,

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