FB07

In less then 2 hours..

It was done.

Done forever

1 shot.

1 chance.

1 game.

Hours of work and prastic.

down the drain.

Last game of my life..

and never even got to hit the turf

biggest regret,

not playing in grade 11.

left with plenty of..

"what if"

This day I will never forget

All of the Sr. grade 12 will never forget.

Men brought to tears..

Passion for the sport,

for the game.

So..

School has been...well rough, plenty of homework and football parasitic just kills a lot of time..
Sports Performance has been making me dead tired everyday,
just..drained of energy at the end of every week.
I try to sleep earlier so I wont be as tired the next day, but my allergies or what ever is wrong with my nose keeps me up all night. Takes me hours to fall asleep.
With all the homework and all the stuff that's going on, I lose site of whats important and let close strings stretch.
The only times I actually spend time with friends are Fridays at Yac and Sunday at church. The rest of the time, I'm at home, doing homework or doing something at home.
Lunch hours I spend watching game film, so I cant really spend time with my friends then.
After parasitic I take the bus home and every now and then I would see Jessica at the bus loop. Nice to see her working hard at ACAD.
Come home, do homework, dinner, chores, study, and then sleep.
Can't wait for semester 1 to be over. My second semester is much more slack, my only cores are ELA, Social and with 2 option's, Gym 30 and Legal 30.
Man have I've been pushing God aside, The only time I spend with Him now are when I take the bus and walk home. Haven't been reading the bible or doing my devotions.
And just yesterday, I'm not really sure if I hit a wall or a wall was torn down. I really don't know how to feel. Very confusing man.
Even though I've been pushing God aside. He been telling me and reminds me to do the little things. Few days ago, He taped me over the shoulder, I turned and looked. I saw a old women holding a lot of bags walking home He told me to help her, or when I'm getting off the bus, He tells me to hold the door. When I was doing the Eggarts run for sports pro, I saw a few kids at a park, and one of them fell from the top of the play ground, God told me to help him. God just somehow reminds me to do things like that even when I'm buried with homework.

Lord, You are a great God, amazing, holy,graceful, merciful,wise, wonderful...
I pray that, You Lord God, help me keep You in my mind. Let me find time to read Your Words, listen to Your answers and fall in amazement of you Lord.
Amen

Wish

Wish
__________________________________
For just a moment
I wish I could have been there
To see Your first step, hear Your very first word
Tell me, did You ever fall and scrape Your knee?
Did You know Your wounds would one day heal the world?

For just one moment
I wish I could have seen You growing
Learning the ways of a carpenter's son
Just a little boy gazing at the stars
Did You remember creating every one?

If You passed by, would I have seen a child or a King?
Would I have known?

I wish I could have been there
My only wish is to see You face to face
Wish I could have been there
Just to see You, Jesus, face to face

For just a moment
I wish I could have been there
When You left Your footprints upon the waves
To walk along beside You and never look away
Just Your whisper and the wind and sea obey

To see You feed the people
To feel Your healing in Your touch

To hear You pray in the garden alone
Laying down Your will with each tear
To see You walk that lonely road
Willing to die for me
And in that moment
I know I should have been there
You took my cross and gave Your life

And You live again!
Wish I could have been there
My only wish is to see You rise again
Wish I could have been there
My only wish is to see You, Jesus, face to face
Someday I'll be there, I'm gonna be there
I'll see Your face, Your mercy, Your grace
Someday, someday
I'm gonna see You, Jesus
Face to face

Looking Back, Letting go of the wheel

Last night I asked my sister for my pictures from along time ago, and who knew that there were pictures from last years VBS. They were all from the scavenger Hunt. So I grabbed them put them in to my picture book. And, well..as i looked at them all, I thought of how great of a feeling it was to do VBS and just being able to do it for God. God blessed me so much that year when I did VBS with Kingston, Louise, and Calvin. Everyday would have new thing to teach and we would have so much fun teaching. From lessons to going to play at Riley park or having special events on Friday, it was all so much fun. The pictures I found just made me happy and well, it make me want to look at all the other photos I had and my parents had. I saw really old picture of the people I recently met in china. I saw my old old house, and just a lot of picture that brought back good memories that I had forgotten. It was great. I could see how God was always with me even though I didn't know Him. He has blessed me so much in my life and I didn't even know Him until 3 years ago. Our God is such a loving God. From when I was born to who and where I am now, God has been looking after me, teaching, and providing for me. And well, where ever I go throughout this life on this world, I'll let Him decide where I'm going. If its to university, I'll go to the one He picks. The job He wants me to do, I'll do it. Letting go of the Steering wheel and Sitting on the side seat with faith. To do thing that will bring me closer to God. As a start I decided to only listen to christian music, as tough as it will be, I think it will bring me closer to God.

Summer at its End

Summer is over and it feels like i wasted it in china.
Well it was a great experience and all but i didn't enjoy it as much as I thought it would. And I would of preferred doing DVBS and staying in Calgary rather then going, haha.
China was fun at some points but at other it was so very boring and yea. Like the first week at Beijing was quite boring because we spent several hours in one place(like 5) and yea. Like I dont mind staying a hour or 2 but 5 or 6 just killed me, haha. Well the 2 days that i spent in Hong Kong were the better days. I really enjoyed Hong Kong. I wish we could of stayed longer, we didn't really get time to see the bay at night with all the light on sigh*.

Summer camp was GREAT this year. Not only did I not fall asleep in service at all but I was like really really enjoying all of his sermons and I took it to heart. And Every sermon spoke to me one way or another and God revealed a different side of Him everyday to me. He (once again) blew my mind away of how infinite and how little I know of Him.

Well I started school already kinda because of football parasitic. It lasts from about 12-5:30 everyday, sigh* its really tiring. Day after day of none stop running for hours and tackling really make you want to go home and sleep! Well I start school school on the 5th and I'm excited and scared at the same time. Yes I get to see all my friends again but then its grade 12 and its my last year. WHERE WILL I GO AFTER?!?!? and I thought this day would never come(and kinda hoped it would never come,haha). I plan to go to university and take Law and Society but I don't know how to get into that course. You need like some pre-course to get into it and I couldn't find out what there were, AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!. Man, and I'm planning to try out for as many sports as possible this year so I leave no regrets behind and so I can get a Platinum award at the end of the year. So my own free time is going down the drain because of the following: Football, Cross Country, Wrestling, Track & Field, and Rugby. All these sports and I have to pump up my grades, its going to be a long year this school year haha.

DAVID YANG IS 5"11?!?!?!?!?!

well..just so you know..the title is just utter randomness =P...but yes I am really that tall.

well my parents let me go to my church summer camp =D!!
but then, when i got home from church, they went crazy angry on me, well my mom did.
there is no Saturday fellowship tomorrow sigh*, just watch as i show up and no one is there, Well no Saturday fellowship tomorrow, sigh* well..then again..the camp was cancelled so maby hahahaha
yea i just pictured me standing there like a loner and yea, haha
for well today, started off bad. I woke up and was exhausted. I went to sleep at like 1:30am and then my phone rings at like 2am for some odd reason and i couldn't sleep at all after that. The last time i remember was like..4am??. Well i woke up today at around 10 and just laid there until 11ish. Then got outta bed and took a walk/run. Sadly, my mind was still being dumb and not cooperating with me. So i went back inside and packed my stuff for tutoring and church and sat on the porch waiting for Calvin to pick me up. The sound of the rain hitting the ground lightly relaxed my mind and cleared my thoughts. Church was kool, we had to wash peoples feet! haha
well yea, then came home and sat there worrying about stuff sigh*.Well now I am sitting here listening to Open Skies, which is a really good song. By David Crowder Band. Man 1 week until china and I'm only exacted about the plane ride there. Not all that excited about China it self, man I'm so weird hahaha. My sisters are so excited about going and same with my parents. Well leaving in a week sigh*.

DAVID YANG IS...(put your answer here=p)

YC 07 KING

BESTS (in random order)
1) Worshiping with thousands of other believers with nothing holding us back
2) Feeling his present and talking with him side by side
3) Jumping until you twist your ankle and your calves are as stiff as rocks
4) Staying up until 3am with friends having the time of our lives
5) Walking around pointlessly around YC and talking about the weirdest things
6) Finally getting to listen to United Live
7) The ride back home and being able to relax and talk with one another
8) Skating at West Edmonton Mall
9) Falling down when we were skating at WEM
10) Trying to take pictures at the skating rink
11) Playing tag at the Skating rink
12) Dressing up "Bob" the statue at the food court at WEM

Worst (in random order)
1) Livy's so very loud snoring that cut my sleep time down to 3 hours
2) Jeff's SUPER ULTRA LOUD SNORING OF DOOM THAT WAS THE LOUDEST EVER
3) Jeff's very loud, very scary, very weird talking to him self in his sleep

AND THIS WAS THE BEST YC EVER!!!!
IT WAS OFF THE HOOK!!!!!
SO AMAZING!!!
SO MUCH FUN WITH EVERYONE!!

The first night, I wasn't as into it as I had hoped for. But the first night
at Marvin's house was great. We stayed up late watching Employee of the
Month. It was so much fun just hanging out with everyone until 3am or so.
The second day the Lord just completely drowned me in worship. I couldn't
feel anything but His presents and just gave it my all to worship Him.
The games we played in the afternoon were fun, but the best part was
when we just sat around and talked. Just hanging with people
I don't hang around with much was great. That night, God just spoke to me
and it was good. He said to me, To do thing by your self is not something
I want you to do, Do things with me in mind and be sure to it for Me and you
will succeed in everything you seek to do.
That night was the best night at YC. Hanging with everyone and playing games.
Memories for life man. I was super tired the next morning because of JEFF.
Well WEM was a blast. Skating was Dana, Jeff, Jack, and Priscilla was so very fun.
Taking the picture was so difficult, I was on the verge of falling off, haha.
The van ride back was much fun. The evening drive back
was so relaxing. The setting sun looked so great. All the amazing
things God created made me think of how great our God is.
he was able to create such a beautiful sight. I took picture with my
camera phone but pictures are nothing compared to what I saw.
The image of Airdrie was the best one, a light rain at night will the small
town lights and a dim outline of a setting sun in the dark night sky.
Talking with everyone was great. Trying to play psp and text haha.
Texting was funner then talking tho. What a trip it was.

GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME
ALL THE TIME, GOD IS GOOD
=D
So never leave His side, He knows what is good for you,
He puts you thorough those hard times to make your stronger,
He is everything you need so live your life in His hand and
everything will go well.

long day..

So today..I woke up..went to a bible study..

felt kinda weird... It ended at around 12 I think, so I went home.

Got home and ate lunch and then did some homework. Then went to my cousin house and tutored. Came home and did some more homework. Then I biked at around 9:30. Got some time to think of many things. Thoughts just came in and out of my mind. When I got home I was a bit down. Tried to relax a bit. Then my parents made me more down/angry.....and it got worse..and worse as the night went on. So I go on the computer to try and keep my self occupied so i wouldn't be down or mad and it didn't work. I just got more down and pissed off.

today was no good...

this song helped me today

Pray

"Thinking through

What to do

You're searching every angle and point of view

Good advice, well rehearsed

Only seems to make matters worse

When you're at a dead end

Where do you go?

My friend, there's an answer I know.

Pray, when the road is steep

Pray, when you're hope gets weak

Know the Father hears through

The silence and the tears you

Pray, when you don't know how

Pray, heaven's waiting now

And Jesus is just a breath away

Pray

The deepest sighs Of the heart

Sometimes it's a struggle when we first start

To wrap our needs up in words

And trust that somehow we will be heard

Draw near, and know you are love

God hears, and his heart is touched

Pray, when the road is steep
Pray, when you're hope gets weak
Know the Father hears through
The silence and the tears you
Pray, when you don't know how
Pray, heaven's waiting now
And Jesus is just a breath away
Pray

Pray for the strength you're needin'

To go on believin'

No matter what you face

You'll have the wisdom and the grace to..."

Pray, when the road is steep

Pray, when you're hope gets weak

Know the Father hears through

The silence and the tears you

Pray, when you don't know how

Pray, heaven's waiting now

And Jesus is just a breath away

Pray

tomorrow will be a better day I hope..

Sigh*

sigh*....I need anger management.

Randomness

Why do Cows moo??
Why do teachers need answer keys??
What is the longest word in the world??
How many people die from wars every day??
What is the point in a war??
Who created NASA??
What time is it Mr.Wolf??
Why doesn't the bible talk about Jesus growing up?(Well I'm not sure if it does)
When did Mario get his voice??
When and how did I become your friend?
Who was that guy on that movie??
Do you like Bok choi?
What does DK mean??
Is Microsoft going to take over the world??
Is apple going to make a I-House??
What came first??the chicken or the egg??
Why does 1+1=2?
Who let the Dogs out?
Are I-pods going to take over the world??
Why buy a PS3 when you can buy 2 Nintendo Wii's??
Why do bad guys in shows always take so long to do there evil plans that the good guy has enough time to stop them??


-When driving a car and you stop at an red light, pass the time by popping bubble wrap.
-If you run a marathon or for a long period of time and you don't drink water, your pee will be a solid dark yellow color.
-Guy are more efficient using washrooms. We do in and do our business and then were out.
-When your tired, go to sleep.
-Eating a giant meal before you have to do a 10km run is a bad idea.
-It is impossible to can your self on purpose.
-You can swallow stuff upside down.

Who said it was easy being a christian??

This morning I felt like puking my guts out and then chopping off my head from a MASSIVE head ache so I decide not to go to Church, and that was a big big mistake.
So I slept in a bit and when I woke up I felt better. My parents brought me and my sister to the cemetery to see my grandpa and "Bi Sun". When we got there my aunt, uncle and grandmas were all doing the Chinese bi sun thing with those Chinese sticks and the the burning of the money. After a while then they asked me to do the bi sun stuff with the sticks and I said no. Right after that my mom said (in Chinese) your not baptized so come here and just do it, its not like your actually apart of the church. I was ticked off but I managed to suppress it. Then my grandma walks over to me and makes my me feel even worse and said (in Chinese) of all the kids in the family he loved you the most so why don't you bi sun. And I was even more angry with that and felt bad....Sigh* what a bad morning today was.

Over the past several weeks I have been killing my self by not sleeping enough. After school I just want to go fall on the floor and sleep, but I can't. Have parasitic and then go to my cousin and make sure they do there homework, do my homework and when all that is done its around 11 or 12. And then I need to take a shower and stuff. I do my devotions and journal and when I crawl into bed, my mind goes thinks about everything and I can't fall asleep for another 30min to an hour. Now I'm thinking about quitting rugby, taking four academic courses, tutoring cousins and joining rugby isn't the best idea. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HELP ME JESUS!!...
And yes I've been praying everyday before I go to sleep, or try to sleep and well, my mind is still in a mess after that!!

But hey, on the brighter side of things I started to go to another bible study on Saturday mornings at the panorama community center. Another day of fellowshiping with other believers. Another day of being able to learn about God. Even with all the things going on in my life and the busyness, God gave me more time to be with Him. And that's all I could ever ask for.

"Walk on"

Here I stand Before a Solid Towering Wall, I look to my left and see no one, I look to my right and see no one, I look to my left again and there Stands God. He said "Walk on", and walks in front and takes the lead, and I follow.

=)

There was a person and he looked on the flood and his footprints were scattered everywhere..they were all over the place..he had no clue where he was going..he asked God to help and and soon enough, God had laid down a straight path for him, as he walked this path he came across a section where his foot prints were scattered again...he asked the Lord what happened?he said "Lord have you left me?"
The Lord replied, "Why have you forgotten?? that is when we danced"

I don't remember where I herd this..but yea, and its not the exact same thing but its close i think.

God is a amazing God.

In His time

Never have I wanted anything more then this. I fell on my knees, broke in to tears asking God for it. It consumed my heart. Its so painful, I was so angry, so upset, I just couldn't hold it back or hide it anymore. It all came out, as I fell on my knees for God. I let it all out at Him and I yelled at Him. I hit the ground with my fist in anger. I wanted them to know Him so much, that I even got mad at God for not saving them. My mom, my dad, my older sister, and my younger sister. I know I shouldn't of. And well I know better now I guess. I need to be able to control my self and my feelings no matter how painful or angry I am. I need to pray for them and for myself too. I need to life up my feeling to the Lord and look for his comfort, and most importantly, I need to be patient, let the Lord decide when it will be time.

"Not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit" -Zachariah 4:6

Not by my might or my attempts or how hard I try, but by the Holy Spirit will then my family will be saved.

Giving it up for Him/I Lay my plan in Your Hand

So today in Sunday school we talked about giving up things for God and how he will give it back 10x. Latter on in the day I saw Bruce Almighty and it also touched on that subject. And then it hit me , how true it really was. If you give something up to God and let Him use it. Not wanting anything in return and being patient about his decision in your life and about what you gave up for him. He will give it back 10x. It gave me this memory of something that happened to me the summer of 05 sometime after the Calgary stamped. I had a huge "issue" going on in my life and in my heart and well, I wanted this thing, I wanted it A LOT. I mean like a lot a lot right, but I could tell God wanted me to give it up to Him. Well I didn't do it right away or with in the next 2 weeks. But I did give it up before school had started. And I had thoughts about it after but I did give it up to God tho. And for 2 years God had not given anything back, and well I didn't except anything from him, I had just about forgotten what I had given up. It wasn't until about, last December??or November??? that I had remembered about it. I started to like, think about it again, and then again, until it was on my mind just about 24/7. But I said to my self, David you don't have it because God does not want you to have it yet. I said that to my self day after day after day. That went on for 2 months and then finally, God gave it back after almost 3 YEARS!! And boy was I overwhelmed by it. It hit me in the face like a rock and it was good. It changed me from sad to like super happy dude.

So I kinda got a layout of what I want to do after High school. And well I need to pray that this is the path that God wants me to take. I mean I need to PRAY ALOT about this..
Well after high school I want to go to University and take Pre-Law and some other courses involving Law and or legal subjects so I have some outline of what lawyers do in there cases. This way when I become a cop I will have some ideas of what lawyers will do. After I finish at the University I would enroll in the Canadian Armed forces for a while. I want to do this because (this is going to sound like a "suck up" some people might think but..) you see all those TV adds about how you should sponsor a child and how bad they have got it. But what you don't see is all the things happening to countries with Civil wars and the racism and all these things and here I am sitting at home doing nothing. I want to join the armed forces and be apart of a UN mission of some sort so I can actually say I've done something about it.Well some time after that I would enroll as a police officer so I can help the people around me and protect the people around me.
Well that's the layout of what I want to do, but is this what God wants me to do??I'm still thinking about that and I need to pray for it. I need to talk to God and see if that is what he wants me to do. And it would be GREAT if you the reader of this blog could pray for me! thanks!!


Dear God,
This is my plan Lord, and I place it in your hands God. Mold it as you please Lord and I pray that You hand it back to me as Your plan for me
In Jesus Name
Amen

Finally a Break..=)

Well school has been a DRAG. Get home, do homework until 9 or 10 sigh*. I don't have much time to do anything. I'm so tired too. Been falling asleep really late for the past few days and that's no good. But hey, God is here by my side so life is GOOD, hahaha. Well besides from being EXHAUSTED from school and homework, I need to plan a ride along sometime. With the police and all, see whats its like and ask a few questions, lately its been on my mind a lot. I was watching the new a while ago and they talked about a officer who died. But it didn't change my opinion or anything like that. It only encouraged me to do it more. You see, the way I look as it is,
I sign up and I make it so I'm a officer. I can help people, help a lot of people. Stop things that are wrong, stop criminals. I am able to help and protect people I love and care for and as well as complete strangers. I mean like, yea I do help people do this or that when they ask me, and for just about all of them I know who they are. But to help a complete stranger when they might of not asked for it, it just makes you feel good that you were able to help someone who you never met before. And when I take the Job, that means someone else might not of been able to take it, and then well I might of saved them??Well I don't think that makes much seance but it makes a lot of seance to me. I just really like to help =)

Its back..

So I started up a Conversation with my friend and it turned to what to do after high school. And now its like in my face sorta like thing. And once again bring a police officer is one of the stronger ones in my head. A step down from that one is being a firefighter and one more is being a gym teacher, those are my top 3. And I'm in grade 11!!only one more year of school and I have to decide what to do and what to take in University!!AHHH=(. I changed my course today to keep doors open. But sigh what am i going to do?

=)

So today, I woke up at around 6??7??maybe 8 am??And I just laid in bed until like 10. Yea, I couldn't really fall back asleep for some reason. Well I got ready for the lunch thing for Katy's birthday party. Well it was so fun when we got off the train. hahaha, It was so very very windy lol. The wind almost knocked Katy off her feet, LOL. Well we went to olive Garden and I ate too maybe bread sticks, lol. I was stuffed after my main course haha. Well after the long 2 hour lunch we all paid and started to walk to the bus stop with the crazy super wind, haha. Well we walked to the Movie Theater and that was very mah fan, haha. We walked behind Sundrige Mall and then there was this like 4ft wall that we had to go over top of, Justin, Jaime, and Don got over it really fast. I was about to but Katy, Ada Emily and Fiona were just standing there, HAHA. So I picked them up one by one and lifted them on top of the wall, LOL. And they had the hardest time walking up the steep hill haha. So we watched Stomp the Yard. It wasn't as good as I hoped it to be. But It was great being able to talk to everyone during the movie, well I only talked to law law=). And after the movie, we all went home. And I feel sickish right now, sigh, well school FINALLY starts tomorrow haha, I have to change my schedule to Chem, Bio, Social, and Math. Im gonna be a busy man during semester 2,..lol, It was a great day today =) =) =) =)

afternoon blog???wow...

Well the past few day have been REAL great. As you may have already read, I had a ton taken off my shoulders =). That was great. The day after that me and a few friends went to cardel to work out, I haven't worked out that hard in a while now. From that one day of working our for like 4 hours my arms were hurting for like....4?3?days??haha, it was good. Day after that, I went to the airport with Katy just for fun, and it was great. hahahaha we took a "plane" to Edmonton. HAHAHAHA(insider) lol. And we just walked around the airport hahaa. good times good time =). Day after that, Skate night at Yac. HAHA it was really fun even thought I didn't get to skate =(..lol, o-well. I think I'll buy skates sometime and go on my own or something like that. Well lets see...

-solve a very mah fan thing that's going on in my head (check) =)
-push someone over at skate night(check)
-annoy someone by pushing them at skate night(check)
-completely gross someone out on the van ride after skate night (check)
-Run more often (working progress)
-Get guns and abs of steel hahaha(working progress)
-do good on exams(i think i did good)
-change courses in school(working progress)

so far..its been a good year for 07...well great year..

=)

A ton was lifted off my shoulders today=)
















ok ok ok ok...
it was sever tons

long day

I haven't had a good nights sleep in a long time and its really begging to bug me. I've been waking up every 2 or so hours and not being able to go back to sleep for a while. And I just keep on thinking...thinking about...well never mind but I'm not getting any sleep and I have exams! Well today I woke up several times before I actually had to wake up and get out of bed. And as usual for the past 2 or so week I went running again, I hope with a new year and being closer to God, I'll be able to stick to my new years resolution. Well when I was running I had a lot of time to think about many things. Thought about my friends and how I met them or how close we were or whatever, and I reflected on the past year...yea I did again. And from the begging of last year and to who I am now. I noticed some changes. Well anyways, I got back home from running and then I went to school to write my Social Written, I think I did ok on it. Well after word I took the bus home and I just thought of stuff. It seemed like God had slowed time for me to think about stuff. I didn't do much when I got home, just went on the computer and yea, well latter on I just laid down on my bed and stared into space and thought about stuff again. Some time latter at like 7 I went for a bike ride and I just biked to my cousin house and did a homework check. After that was when I went for my real bike ride. I biked to my spot. And as usual, I was amazed of how nice the view was. You could see everything up to the airport to Nose Hill park to the farthest parts of Kincora. I was standing by the edge and I could just feel God standing with me, I could hear him saying "isn't this beautiful". I just talked to him and asked for advice. After some time, it was 9, well it was really late and it was quite dark out so I started home, and again I could feel God beside me as I went home.




and now my I just feel like there is a ton on my shoulder's and I just don't feel right?

*sigh

This morning when I woke up, I just knew it wasn't going to be a good or great day. Right after I got off the computer and I started to think about this one thing, that was all I was able to think about. When I closed the door and started to go to church that was still on my mind. And well, even when I got to church it was on my mind. I thought I had make a mistake about telling my friend something, well I have to confess, what I had told her was a lie. She would always bug me about thins "issue" and would say mean thing to this person, so I thought if I lied to her it would stop her, well it did but I felt like crap after I did so. When I told her that, I started to try to make the lie come true, but I was only able to lie to my self and that just made things worse. And well it was a mistake telling my friend that lie, and I wish i didn't, all I have to do now is to set thing right or fix it. Or fix what I can, and hope I didn't hurt anyone with that lie.

I can't call it a bad day because church just brought me back up a little bit. During worship was the only real time I could forget about it and just completely focus on God and worship him. And talking to like Calvin, Leo, Tanya, Jeff, Eva, Randy, and well I could go on and on but talking to them, I could just forget about it, well not completely, it was in the back of my head but it was just, nice I guess. But it back on my mind now, 2am at night and I can't sleep. This just sucks!


O-the reasons why you don't lie and
the way God teaches you why you shouldn't

=) - DECISIONS!!

So this week I've been at home and sleeping in to catch up on that night of no sleep at YAC. It was a gooooooooooooooooood sleep, hahaha =). Well we had 2 new years party and they were both great. One was at my baby cousin house and the other was at my house. Well I've been doing my running and fixing my brain kind of, and yea. Well today was a great day too. Woke up early and went running and ran with Katy too. It was very "mah fan" because she would stop or go very slowly on some parts and I would have to go VERY slow or stop so she can catch up. =P. And then I had to piggy back her because she was too tired to go on. Haha. After running we watched at movie, well 2 movies. High School Musical and The Perfect Man. High School Musical was a lot better then I thought but it was still only a ok movie, well above ok. It was very weird but also very fun at the same time between the movies and during them. The "attacking" and stuff hahaha =P. Well my back is REALLY hurting for some reason and I have no clue why =(. Well I can't wait for YAC this week and yea.

Its kind of weird the things God does to you. I mean the situation he puts you in. He put me in many these past few week and I had no clue what to do. Well the situation he put me in made me decide on 2 things. To act now you be patient and wait. Well I've been picking the patience and wait a lot but I've been looking back and wondering if I should of picked the act now one. Well for all the situations, if I had picked act now, I would be a lot happier and just happier but it was like one of those things where if it didn't go your way, I would be bummed out for a few days. Well its very very very complex and confusing. Its just the situations he has put me in this and last week. They were very "mah fan" or VERY hard choices. I know He is there, but I really want to know if I'm following the path he want me to follow. I have no clue where my path is going? well I have some clue but I don't know if it is the right one. Well I'm hoping it is but I have no clue. I'm just not sure if I'm on the path Jesus want me to take. I know at the end of what ever path I take I will end up with Jesus, but which path is the right path or which path is the path Jesus wants me to take?


Well I'm tired, guess I'll try to sleep on it?
well never the less it was a goooooooooooood day =)