Tugging on my heart

You know,
I've been thinking a lot about my lasts lately..
Like when I'm busing to school..
Walking home..
In class..
and even at church..
I keep on thinking..
"I'm going to miss this"
or
"How many more times will I be able to do this"
"Is this the last time I'm going to be doing this"

And well..
Sometimes I'm sadden by it, but other times I say it in a happy manner..
like a few weeks ago after service..
I have a list..
of things I have to give up..
Hopes and Dreams..
Many if not all, I really wish could happen..
I wish, oh how I wish they could..

Give this soul strength oh Lord
Strength to pursue You on the path You have placed upon this weak soul
Cast away the pain of letting it all go
In your Name
Amen