I could...
Throw my fist thorough a wall.
Smash a table into pieces.
Fall on my knees and just cry.
Take an ax to a car.
Run until I throw up.
Punch a punching bag until my knuckles bleed.
Floor the gas pedal with no one to stop me.
Scream and yell till I'm voice less.
I could do all that,
but still I would get no response.
I just want to flip outta control. Just RUN AND DISAPPEAR!!
JUST BE GONE!
JUST BE GONE!
Away from feeling like this.
WILL IT GO AWAY!
COME ON!!!!!!!!!!!! BUZZ OFF!!!LEAVE IT!!!GO AWAY!!!!
COME ON!!!!!!!!!!!! BUZZ OFF!!!LEAVE IT!!!GO AWAY!!!!
Right now.
I just wan to cry.
I feel so. So alone in this family.
So far away from everyone.
A dim fire hidden away in a dark forest.
Unseeable and unnoticeable from a distance.
Surrounded by darkness, the fire suffocates in the darkness.
Waiting for a fire to burn away the darkness,
to ignite this gas that is so ready to burn.
To burn away the stench that is suffocating this heart.
Just another test?
A really really hard one.
I'll pass...
right?
Just have to keep hacking at it.
Once you get thorough the hard outer layer.
You'll hit the soft inner layers and all will come out.
Not even worth a please or thank you.
I'll sleep on it again.
Goodnight all.
Goodnight all.
1 comments:
A dim fire may be hidden away in a dark forest. But it still provides light and heat for those that require it. Sometimes, that is all God requires of you. You can not always be like the blazing sun that is capable of affecting everyone at all times. Sometimes, you just need to provide that small light, that small warmth to those near you.
And though that dim fire may be neglected. When someone has nothing left and is feeling lost. They will seek that dim fire out. Snuff it out before then, and there is nothing.
Hold strong, David.
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